I’ve toyed with the idea of going to the baths for a while but kept changing my mind last minute because I was so worried about what people what say about my body.
Today was the day! & Guess what…
No one stared, no one laughed and no one made any rude comments about my jiggly bits! People were just interested in talking to Bella!
I’ve been spending so much time recently looking in the mirror and not liking what I see that I’ve not actually sat down and thought about all the wonderful things my body has done for me over the past year.
First it allowed me to get pregnant something I am so grateful for! It then let me grow a strong and healthy human for 41weeks! It got us both through a tough birth that I’m still struggling to get my head around and the 2 months of recovery after.
It’s now strong enough to get up at all hours of the night for cuddles and feeds, strong enough to spend all day playing games and doing activities (with a afternoon nap obviously) and strong enough to help my amazing friends and family with things they are struggling with at the moment.
So yeah, my tummy has more stretch marks and my thighs and bum has way more cellulite than it did last year but it’s been through so much.
Yes in time I hope I can lose some weight if only to make sure im fit enough to chase Bella when she’s running around like a little terror but in the mean time if I want to wear a bikini to go swimming im going to!
Because as much as I worry that people are going to judge me it’s not going to stop me doing the things I love with my beautiful baby!
Bella is having such a hard time getting to sleep at night at the moment but when she is finally falling asleep that’s her for a good 7 hours! Why must she fight the sleep so much, screaming and throwing herself around like a crazy person! Doesn’t she understand sleep is the best thing ever!😂
Since day one I struggled to sleep when she was sleeping, I was so scared that something was going to happen to her if I took my eyes off her for just one second. It took me weeks to have more than a hours sleep at a time and whenever anyone asked me if I was alright my answer was always ‘yeah I’m great’ Note: I was not great.
If it hadn’t have been for my mum insisting I come over so she could ‘spend time with Bella’ I might still be struggling now. I know now that she was doing this not only to spend time with her granddaughter but to give me a much needed break, I could eat and sleep during the day without having to worry that something would happen and I was as refreshed as I could be ready for nighttime to come around again. Thanks Mum!
Only now at 16 weeks have I really started to sleep properly, taking myself off to bed by 08:30pm to get as much as I can’t before the 01:30am feed. I do feel like I hardly get to see my husband though, does this get better? By the time he gets in from work, spends a hour with Bella then puts her to bed we are both too tired to have any adult conversation and just find ourselves eating tea, watching Netflix then falling asleep.
Hopefully this evening kick off will pass in time and we can make bedtime a relaxing and quiet again. If anyone has any experience of this I would love to hear how you managed?
Finally! A foundation that doesn’t sit in all of my creases and make me look like a worn in sand shoe! Kat Von D you are a legand! You’ve made this new mum look like she’s had more than 4 hours sleep and I couldn’t be more grateful.
I really wanted to give it a try after spending so much money on other brands that look amazing when the makeup artist paints your face but when you try it at home you look like Captain Spaulding on a good day but I’m so happy to to say this didn’t happen. When I went in to give it a go Sarah couldn’t make me feel more comfortable! It was as so amazing to be surrounded by a bunch of beautiful woman who are exactly who they want to be and don’t conform to the mainstream.
Even when taking the foundation off I found my skin was still soft and it didn’t leave any ‘crusty’ bits like some other can.
What makes this foundation even better is that it’s VEGAN and CRUELTY FREE!!
I couldn’t recommend the ladies at the Kat Von D stand in Debenhams Newcastle more so if you are passing you should totally go in and have a mooch!!
I am a self proclaimed BBQ queen. Today I got out my amazing smoker BBQ that I got for my birthday last year. It’s been calling my name for weeks from the shed.
After the stressful trip to Asda to gather all of the tasty foods we left with both meat for me and veggie burgers for my husband. I even got to have a little cider in the sunshine!
Bella had the best time playing with her toys in the garden and wearing her amazing new full body swimsuit from Boots! With matching hat might I add!!
I’m so happy I’m getting the chance to spend the summer with her before going back to work in September but don’t get me wrong I am actually looking forward to going back to work part time.
In 2017 I became a wife to the sweetest and silliest man I’ve ever met. I was so lucky he came into my life, he was my knight in a Vivienne Westwood suit! Which brings us to three years later. We have am American Akita called Roxie and a beautiful baby girl Bella.
We are 15 weeks into the most tiring but rewarding adventure of our lives.
I’m hoping to raise a strong minded, caring, free spirit.
I’ve always thought of myself as a people pleaser, not wanting to rock the boat or say what’s on my mind. I do not want my daughter to feel the same. I want her to grow up knowing it’s okay to speak your mind and to have your own view on the world and that there is a fine line between being considerate and kind to others and letting people walk all over you.
So basically all this blog is is me decluttering my brain by writing it all down. One day I might be stressing about motherhood and the next writing about how amazing a place or product is, who knows! It’s just going to be nice for me to have somewhere I can spew out my thoughts!